Undecided lia Whitney
Lia Whitney
Period 5
Flash Fiction
Send the text? Delete it? Call him? I just don't know. Are my emotions playing with me? It haunts me to think that I will regret my decision tomorrow. But I have lost my butterflies. They no longer live in my stomach. I guess they decided to fly away. One by one they flew away, and now I have lost my last one. I picture his face and no pleasure comes to me, but when I imagine breaking his heart I would rather die. How is it possible that I care for him so much, but I'm no longer in love with him. 1 year 4 months and 2 weeks ago I met the guy who completed me, and now I'm going to end it. But I can't. My emotions are frozen and on fire at the same time. I can remember Valentines day, smelling of roses and tasting of chocolate; I can feel his hard shoulder as I cry upon it, but with a flash I can see the broken door and the wall with a hole the size of a fist. It seems impossible to send this text and end it all. I couldn't bare to breakup with him in person. The words couldn't come out of my mouth no matter how hard I'd try. There is a council in my head debating. They stand out of agitation, and yell and point across the room. Spit is flying. No one seems to be able to control themselves. It’s so loud.
One man shouts, “You are nothing without him!”
While another man shouts back, “Is a boy really worth your mental stability?” I am the president and the second man really does have a point. If I’m not my own person then who am I? It’s time to figure it out...But I just can’t hurt him. Why is this so difficult? I reminisce
I need to free myself with one button. Just one simple button.
Yes?
No?
I begin to cry out of frustration and guilt. My vision is blurred despite my best efforts. I owe it to him to not be in a fake relationship. And I owe it to myself to be happy. It must be done.
My finger hovers over the button, and with one small tap the center of my world for 1 year 4 months and 2 weeks is no longer.
I am my own center. I take care of myself before anyone else. I am free.
Labels: Lia W.
posted by BeeMD @ 1:37 PM
5 Comments
5 Comments:
You have beautiful interior monologue that really captures the indecision of your main character. And I love your ending. :)
I love your story. It's perfectly concise and the emotion is described beautifully and is very powerful-you can feel what the character is feeling
I really like the powerful description of emotions that occurs in your monologue. The difficult situation of your character and the emotions are very well expressed.
I really like this because it is coming that a lot of us go through and something relatable. GREAT JOB
I loved the butterfly metaphor you used in the beginning. The interior monologue ives an interesting insight into why the main character is ending the relationship.
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